I recently enrolled in college after working for 15 years and losing my most recent job due to outsourcing. Fed up with living paycheck-to-paycheck, I decided that going back to school would be a much better course of action than starting over yet again at another minimum-wage job, giving it my all for 7-8 years and then ending up right back where I started for the third time.
The only way I am able to do this is through a student loan. I live with my common-law partner of 3 years and while he works full-time, it’s barely enough to support two adults. Hell, it ISN'T enough! Well, I was fortunate enough to be approved for the loan. The kicker? Because I don’t have dependants, the government only provides me enough to pay for school and enough money to live off of for a month…maybe two if I’m extremely careful and do zero recreational spending. I receive these funds every 4 months, so you do the math.
I have been doing everything in my power to find a steady part-time job. I've actually had two in the past four months. The problem is, because my class schedule changes so frequently, my hours of availability for work also need to be adjusted frequently. I’ve lost two jobs (two different grocery stores) over this. No matter how much a company claims they’re used to employing students and are ultra-flexible in that respect, some simply aren't. So, the search continues. It’s extremely frustrating. Just this week alone, I received two phone calls for interviews which conflicted with my class hours. Both have said they’ll call me back to reschedule, but I’m doubtful. I guess I don’t blame them. I’m taking some very demanding courses and I simply can’t afford to miss a class. Besides, if I remain an A student and have perfect attendance, the government will reduce what I have to pay back from my loan by 30%.
There are plenty of students in my school who have kids. The single moms have it made….they not only receive funds to attend school, but they receive more than enough money to support themselves and their kids without working AND they don’t have to pay it back! Are they grateful? NAW! The air of entitlement is noxious. Some of them are only attending school for the government handout. It rots me to the core. I’m childfree and I always have been. I’ve always been responsible and made sure not to pop out kids I both don’t want and can’t afford to support anyway. As a result, it looks like I can pretty much kiss the government’s ass. Had I been irresponsible and crapped out mouths to feed, the government would be kissing my ass right now. It’s just not fair and it sends a pretty backward message to the people of this province.
Needless to say, I’m extremely bitter right now. I’m broke, depressed, and feeling utterly useless. My BF is understanding about it all, but I still feel guilty for not contributing financially right now. The only thing I feel good about these days is the high grades I’m earning in school. Still, I’d rather be shot in the face than breed, even if it means a free ride; courtesy of the taxpayers.